Cancer

Probably the most frustrating word to ever come out from your doctor's lips. At first I thought she was talking about my birth sign, but then I was like I was born on June, I had the same birthday as Jun and I'm a proud Gemini like Hoshi.

Was she probably talking about her other patient? Maybe. But then again under Professional Doctor's Code she's not supposed to ramble about her other patients to me.

Then it hits me. Ah, so she must be referring to that cancer, huh?

I rolled my eyes, scrunch my eyebrows, trying my best to actually process what she said. Really?

So I laughed.

It's not like getting teary-eyed would change the fact that there's some foreign, maybe not too foreign, object at least the size of one finger joint, relaxing with a cup of tea somewhere in the body.

So I laughed.

And she's confused.

I smiled at her, huffed a random sigh as my mind wander back to this friend of mine.

The last time I saw him was... a couple of days ago. I made it a habitual thing to visit him on his birthday, buy him a cake and a red balloon just cuz he'd usually complain if I bring him a yellow one. My trip to his place is always tiring, probably cuz of the number of stairs I had to climb and the scorching weather, but I enjoyed it nonetheless.

He'd always greet me in the same place. And I always greet him with a bouquet of flower. White lily. His favourite.

I never forget to give him a relaxing bath, wiping every inch of his cold stone with water. Then I arranged his birthday cake, the yellow balloon and the white lily. I'd talk to him for hours. About everything.

Then I remember his last words. "Do you know why it's called cancer?"

I shook my head, visibly confused.

"Cuz it stands for can survive."

It's ironic how he left the next day, but I have a feeling that I should trust his words this time.

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